My lovely baby
You are going to be one soon so here is a little story about you!
Your mummy and daddy yearned for a second baby and then you were in my tummy. It wasn’t easy, with lots of scares. But you hung on, and you made sure I was strong.
As your arrival date came closer, I wondered am I prepared to be a mum of two? Can I handle it? Will you feel loved and cherished? I wondered because we didn’t spend hours reading baby books, we didn’t go to ante natal classes to prepare, there was no exciting shopping and envisioning cute outfits. The build up wasn’t exciting, it was anxious- we were worried about you and we wanted to make sure your sister didn’t feel neglected.
And then you came- like a bullet! You were in a hurry to meet mummy and tell her it will be ok. And with such a swift arrival, mummy was home the same day. Your sister was thrilled to meet you and suddenly all the anxiety and the fears melted away. I held you and I understood why it didn’t matter that you weren’t my first. Everything from the pregnancy to the birth was unique and everything after will be too! Your cries, your smiles and every little gesture are a first for me.You were the missing part of our little family.
Over the last year, we have learnt how to be a family of 4. I was more prepared this time, the first few months I knew what to expect and stayed calm. I realised my fears were unfounded- I didn’t have to read baby books but I had to learn how to deal with two. It was more complex and I felt guilty all the time. But you didn’t complain as I learnt the juggle.
What’s new for me is watching someone be as important as mummy and daddy to you (maybe more): the person you love and adore, who you follow around: your elder sister. Both of you are obsessed with each other: she can’t let you sleep because she misses you. You want to grow up so fast, wishing you could do what your sister is doing- your cheeky smile and determined attempts tell us that. And then there are the sleepless nights where you wake each other up and I am sure there will be many fights but watching you both giggle and cuddle are worth all that!
So my darling girl, remember even when you grow up, you don’t have to fret that you are second. From birth to the first year and beyond, there is no one like you! Every step you take, every path you embark on and everything you become is uniquely yours and we can’t wait to watch every step of the way!